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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

No need to ask for forgiveness, you’ve done nothing wrong. Keep ploughing forward as slow or as fast as you can. I believe the healing will come.

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Thank you 💜

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

Kate - we all love and support you. And we support you taking care of yourself first. Your health and well-being is so much more important that anything else. Take what you need. We will be here when you're ready.

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Thank you, Shannon 💜😘

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

Love you Kate. Every bit of you. Forever thankful that you show up here and share bits of your life with us. Whatever you are able… whenever you are able. Honored, as always. Xxx

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LOVE YOU MICHELLE! So grateful for you in my life. xo

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

There is nothing to forgive! It’s just another step in your journey. Wishing you peace and love. ❤️

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Thank you -- truly.

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

In honoring your limitations, you are showing radical self-love, and that is a precious gift you are sharing with all your followers who live your work. Carry on Love Warrior!

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Thank you, love!

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

We love you, Kate, and please know you aren’t letting anyone down. Taking care of YOU has to be your first priority. I attended the meeting two weeks ago and have been inspired to slow down and start listening to my own body. After struggling with mental illness and chronic illness/pain for years and pushing myself extremely hard because “other people can,” I’ve finally given myself permission to put my physical and mental needs first. FEARS Camp is a wonderful idea and if/when it’s meant to be available to the world, you will know, but it’s not worth the stress your body is under now. Sending you lots of love and wishes for rest and peace. 💜

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Thank you, Lecy. I appreciate this more than you know. 💜

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

I don’t feel like you have anything to apologize for. You tried to make something happen and it didn’t work out. You are teaching me a more valuable skill of prioritizing my health and wellbeing. 💜

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I so appreciate this perspective! I think I just was so excited to do it with you all that it feels even more disappointing. I also hate breaking promises.

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

By listening to your body and taking care of yourself, you are teaching us all more than you can imagine. Take care of yourself. We’ll be here if/when it’s time!

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Thank you, Kelly 💜

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

Kate you need to be the most important person in your life. Things will happen in time. At the moment I can hardly leave my house. Sometimes we just need to rest!

Sending you lots of love. ❤️

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You are so right. And goodness, this is clearly something I have lots of room for improvement. And as for hardly leaving the house, me too. And though I don't presume to get your fight, I see you in it and I am so proud of you choosing you.

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Wishing you all the best and that you continue to take it at the pace that is right for your body. This post is healing out loud - to share your process like this and I am so grateful to get to witness it.

Question - did the clinicians who emailed suggest FEARS camp would be harmful to attendees? Or to you? If they suggested harmful to attendees, I'm disappointed to hear that. Clinicians and their perspectives are important AND lived experience and expertise is incredibly valuable and not harmful. It feels icky to me to think that clinicians policing how those of us with severe mental illness choose to share our lived experience, so I'm hoping I'm misreading that!

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Thank you so much for this kindness! Truly.

And the clinicians emails suggested it would be harmful to participants which saddened me deeply and also activated me quite a bit (clearly). I too feel that lived experience is immeasurably valuable and find it really disheartening that I get so much criticism from clinicians. I try to remind myself that they are trying to protect people -- to limit harm -- but I find it increasingly frustrating as I realize and unpack how much harm the mental health care system and clinicians did to me, at large.

Anyways, thanks for listening! xo

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

This is such a beautiful post. Not only is this honoring yourself, it’s honoring everyone (myself included) who have had to slow down, and listen to what their mind and body are asking for.

Thank you so much for this 💜 you’re doing something amazing and helpful, even if it doesn’t quite feel like it.

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Thank you for this perspective. So much. 💜

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Of course! This really helps remind me that it’s okay to make even a small amount of peace with the reality of my capacity. Thank you.

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

I’m just reading about your previous plan to do the FEARS camp & what you wanted it to be/look like. Though it may not be what you wanted and have to step back it sounds like your brain and body knew you needed the theme “An Invitation to Explore Rest” to actually give yourself permission and space to do that very thing. You so deserve to give your mind and body the rest they need as hard as slowing down can be. Thank you for the reminder that it’s ok to give our bodies what they are asking for and what they need. I know we are internet strangers and I’m still so proud of you for being brave and sharing your thoughts and experiences with us. 💜

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Yes -- it is exactly that. My body knew. Beautifully put and so so glad you are here with me.

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

Big hugs h ft or you. Your honesty about where you are right now is a gift to yourself. And a gift to your readers.

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So grateful to have you here with me. 💜

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

You honor us by honoring yourself and the signals your body is giving you. You help us by sharing this, and in turn, we send love and healing back to you. Thank you!

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So grateful to have you here. 💜

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

Kate - You are a brave warrior. We are all here because we love and respect you. We honor the place you are in. Whether it’s a fear camp or just some words from you. We are here for you, because you are you. I am not disappointed. I am sad for your struggle. I am hoping that you’ve been able to get outside for a bit these last few days. To feel the sun on your skin. And if you haven’t, if you’ve been in bed, then I hope that your beautiful girls have been snuggled up beside you. Keep taking the deep breaths. Keep snuggling with the pups. When they bring you back to yourself I hope that you cry happy tears. I also hope that with your decision, some symptoms will stop. Sending you love.

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Thank you -- so so much. and lots of snuggles and sunshine have indeed been in order.

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Sep 12Liked by Kate Speer

No worries. You need to listen to your body and mind and rest. A hard lesson I’m still learning living with MS. ❤️

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Such a hard lesson. Glad we can both learn it together. 💜

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