Change is coming

and I so appreciate your patience while I am unable to discuss it.

Good Morning beloved human,

Or rather, good afternoon. It has been quite a week over here in the Waffle house and hopefully soon, I will be able to talk about it. For now, let me just say that if you are in the trenches of a big life change like me, oof – and may we both dig ourselves out soon.

To soothe my fatigue and nervous system, I’m again sharing some lines with you all this week. 

Here’s hoping they can offer both of us a glimmer of sunshine or at the very least, a moment of peace.

With love,

Kate

I don’t know why it hurts so much

I guess I just live

forever

with this 

heaviness

of heart

and the tears fall

just like the rain

people will say I failed

and that 

is okay

because it will never be true

you cannot fail when you choose to be good

yes

I lived in the darkness

yes

I might have even been the darkness

but the darkness

is where all seeds 

begin 

to grow

the feelings you feel

they

are not 

who you are

and I will forgive them

one day soon

but I will not forgive for them for them

I will forgive them

for me

and in the hurricane

we rise

like the swell of the sea

it’s always hard

it’s not about changing that

it’s about harnessing it

for good

And I’ll end with the one I have repeated to myself over and over and over again this week.

and the girl asked,

what’s wrong with you?

and I smiled 

amidst tears

for I finally knew

nothing is wrong with me

nothing is wrong with me at all

something is wrong with the world